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Julie Answers: Does change have to be all-or-nothing?
Joey asked: I want to figure out how I can change for the better without hating myself in the process. I started looking into myself so I could change for the better, but then I started to feel insecure about anything that I do. I think I’ve built up a lot of anxiety and also at some point became depressed. I feel like I’ve tried many times to change for the better but it wasn’t good enough or I just didn’t want to change out of spite.
I’m sure there are a few things I could benefit from changing, but there are some things I think are not horrible enough to actually need to change, and I think I became resentful toward myself and others for that.
Although I’ve thought about it before, this is the first time I’m seeking help. I don’t want to think that I’m dumb for thinking I need help because this is probably nothing. But I’ve tried to help myself for a long time and have only come back full circle.
It’s probably dumb of me to try and diagnose myself but I think I have PTED. I am insecure but I do have self-love. I’m scared you’ll think I came here just to find a reason to explain why I’m so messed up. But in some ways I think I’m not messed up. At the end of the day I want to figure out and work on what is going on with me.
